This. and That.

Hello again!
So its been a busy few days since I wrote last.
First off, I was dealing with a wee bought of depression from all the negative things that I left effect my head. I knew when the terrible events were having that I needed to not go into that dark place. However, I dipped my toes against my own best advice. I spent about a week with the blinds drawn, phone off, and emo music blaring. Then I got up and cleaned my kitchen and started to make my plans for the next bit of life.
I was really hurting. I was basically fired from catering my first wedding because the Bride and Groom over spent and I was the easiest thing to cut. However, they were hurtful and make me look bad. Since they were my godmothers daughter and son-in-law, that caused grief that is still playing out too. And their blatant lies were quickly caught, causes me to cry a little more. I learned a lesson though. Never cater weddings. Brides and Grooms suck to deal with.
While this was happening, Parker, my partner for 10 years, was hospitalized in California where he is working for pneumonia. I was unable to do much about it though, because I had just returned from seeing him and we just cant afford it.
On top of all this, I was suppose to be looking for a place to move. Because, we were informed when paying our rent last month, that our month-to-month rental is being given to the owner of the properties son. SO we have until April 30th to get out. This means, we have to find a place and move before Park is home and we are due out the same day I leave for Alaska. Packing for 5 months in Alaska is hard enough work. To pack an entire house and move it on my own? UGH!! Parker's solution is he will just pay someone to help me, but that someone can not do it without my instruction, so the stress is still on me. If he were here he could help me tell helpers the where/what/and how of all our belonging. But he is not, so he needs to have a little bit of respect for the stress that I am going through.
Today was a really good day though. I went out looking at places with my dad. We found one in a family type neighborhood in Sellwood. Its a duplex with the same amount of space and rooms we have now. But its better than where we are now, because it has a backyard and a frontyard for the puppies, its a block from Sellwood park, and it has a washing machine and dryer in it!!! We will hear back in a few days about it, but I am praying we get it. It would be perfect.
I am getting so excited for Alaska, but the fear of leaving and going somewhere new is scary too!
Well, I have run out of words.. When I have more pacients and time I am going to make some tabs and make this thing pretty.. I will get there..


My love,
            Sarah